The Re-Introduction

I’m to write a book. An opportunity to write something that will heal me in ways that I haven’t allowed myself to be healed as of yet. I’m terrified because in my mind that means having to pull out the things that I put back (again).  It’s time to let them go and fully be free and not be bound by my memories or the thoughts that the linger in the back recesses of my mind.  I’m afraid that if I bring voice to these things that I bring them to life and prove that they aren’t the monsters that are in the back of my closet or under my bed.  That they’re actually real and authentic and tried to take me out and make me doubt everything that I am.  Made me question my worth and cower in the corner to just sit and watch because my voice wasn’t bold enough to say “that’s enough”.  But I’ve been commissioned to bring light to the dark areas of my life and show me that while they were real, they don’t have a hold on me anymore.  They don’t control me anymore and that I’m bigger and better than anything I ever thought I could be. So I’m going to write, write fearful, write through tears, write with the boldness that’s been put in me because it hasn’t been quieted. If anything it’s grown, the lioness has discovered her power and we’re not going to let it go back in hiding anymore.  It’s time to write.